Rambling To Settle
Golly so the summer is over.. my beautiful summer. My did I enjoy that.. (brief summary.. went to arkansas with my aunts and grandmother, worked at camp all summer, went backpacking, then finished with a trip to Victoria.. maybe more details later.. maybe not... we'll see) Soo right now. I'm just i don't even know what.. I feel like exploiding.. I get home and suddenly everything and everyone is starting to pile up on me. My mind is more cluttered then my freshly torn apart room. gah.. maybe I'll start from the begining of the day.. My first day of my sr.year.. so here we go. rolled out of bed.. hit the snooze across the room numerous times.. then got ready and went.. assembly.. interesting social class.. bio..hmm so had an akward moment there.. not so found of those.. gah I swear my face was as red as a tulip! .. maybe not go there eh? .. so then back to socail. lunch.. art.. spare.. not so bad eh? just that one lil thing.. suddenly i get home after a short shoppin dentist deal.... everyone is e-mailing me.. wanting me to play guitar.. wanting me to be the leader of a club... wanted to go for coffee.. wanted to "go out".. my.. then the parents start yellin at supper about there stupid expactaions of me.. just cuz they think I should be this huge successs.. they want me to do better then everyone.. they want everything to be just well the way they want.. gah one even swore at me... and of course. if i left the room.. my would that be trouble.. soo i sat and lost my appetite.. figures.. then they try to sweeten me up towards them with these delicious homemade canned pears.. gah to die for.. didn't work.. as i guess u can see.. was sent to clean and organize my room and my life.. ah! following that.. i escaped to value village's fifty percent off sale.. cute belt.. cute necklace.. then back home.. hardcore talk with this guy.... ahh and in the middle we got cut out.. ahh it was bad.. and akward.. talked with a sad friend, another spilled alot.. missed kai and geoff.. when my compt somehow signed me on.. 6 phonecalls.. couldn't find my socail book.. tore apart my room.. found it.. still not my self.. wasted the night.. its now 12:22.. and I have to run tomorow.. and catch a bus.. and do my homework that I thought I had done.... only 4 q's in socail... have some devo time.. and then go to school.... AHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Its the flippin first day and everything is bad.. my parents are takin over my life.. i'm like not allowed to go out much.. much equals like not at all.. ahhh i just don't know. Don't even get me started on some of those boys..... i don't even know what to say about them.. all this typing and i thought i'd feel better.. and yet I don't.. I feel more sad.. now i'm issin people.. and ahh.. I pray that things improve.. may I have sweet dreams.. and a better day tomorow..